Last year was really a tough year for me. I’ve been through a lot of things. From family to friends. From school to money and all things that complicates life. I’ve seen who my real friends are and especially I’ve known when to let go and just let things happen.

Last year, my boyfriend for 3 years and I broke up for the reasons I do not know. I may know it but no, I really don’t. Just like what they say, “Love don’t change. People do.” Yes, it is heartbreaking. I’m not gonna lie. But acceptance is a process that I went through after that. But I always believe that everything happens for a certain reasons. Reasons we do not know unless the right time comes a long. I have done my part and I don’t have any regrets, it may be unfair for me but also for him. I should not be selfish, not at that time.

Last year, I stopped schooling. I was supposedly 3rd year Masscom student but then I decide to stop and make the time useful to think about things I haven’t spend time thinking. Realizations. I’m way too  lucky. I must not be so sad and lonely about life and I’m so thankful about my parents because they understand what I’m going through and let me think for myself and give me second chance. Yes, I’m back on the track. Too lucky. Thank God.

Last year, I went back to school and make it my new beginning. New world, new people and new love. I met the guy that will change my perspectives my outlook in life. He made me a better person. Again, Thank God for letting me see the right path. For always giving me the best. For always. For always guiding me in every single journey I need to surpass. And for always making me feel that I’m not alone.

Indeed, last year is a tough year.

I’m a Catholic. I believe in God but then I also believe in Karma. I eat pork and all kinds of meat except for dogs and goats. I believe in reincarnation but not in life after death. I pray and I thank God. We have saints sculptures all over our house and also crucifixes. I pray the rosary and I go to church if time allows me. I believe in fate and destiny. I read the book of Confucius and would love to read the Koran, if given a chance. I believe that God loves each and every one of us. He won’t let us suffer and challenges are given to us for us to be strong and tough as we travel in the journey of life. 

A stranger that changed my life? A stranger that leads me to righteousness?

How can you tell a stranger?

How about the writers you’ve been reading his creation for years now and still you just knew him through his pen name? Would you call him a stranger?

How about someone you knew because of his publicity in all kinds of media but you didn’t know him personally? Would you call him stranger?

How about someone who has been a friend to you for years through letters and internet? And you haven’t met yet? Would you call him stranger?

WOULD YOU CALL HIM A STRANGER? How can you tell? 

Now you tell me, stranger.

I have posted something about my dreams about a month ago and every time I list down all my dreams for the coming years I always get excited for what awaits me in the future.

First, to finish college and have a decent job that will make my parents proud of me.

Second, build my dream house.

Third, have my own book-coffee shop.

Fourth, travel.

Fifth, have  my own family. Loving and faithful husband and two handsome sons.

As you can see, my least priority is to have a family of my own. I still want to enjoy my life and extend it to the limits. I don’t want to commit myself in to something that I will regret after and let my children suffer in the end. I want to be ready when that day comes. I want to have a perfect wedding and be the prettiest bride that will make all the ladies jealous. I want to have a husband that will truly love me and stick with me until both of us already have the wrinkled faces.

I want to dream for myself first. Then we will be all dreaming together as a beautiful family. 

My brother is so cute when he’s still young but now I’m like, “What the hell happened to you?” He’s a lot skinnier than I am, tall and his 2 front teeth are bigger than the normal size. Tehee! :) Oh btw, he is Jim Mariani C. Asegurado, grade 6. 12 years old. June 26, 2000. And he spends a lot of time playing his PSP and playing basketball. BADUY AND DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO DO HIS HOMEWORK ON TIME. And I dearly believe that he has Short Term Memory Loss. OMG! He forgot things easily. Hayyy.

BEFORE:

AFTER:

He have grown a lot. REALLY.